Journal 2026

2026-06-21 #

I've been playing a lot of the Dust Front RTS Demo, great game with a great art style. Just one Russian dude, rtsDimon, working on it solo for 8+ years. I've already figured out the macro strategy and beat the mutants and rebels at 10x difficulty and 4x base, the hardest difficulty so far. All of the base building is its own micro, having to constantly upgrade and build more. The key to victory is basically compulsive base building and turtling, then having an assault force with plenty of artillery for leveling the enemy base. Maybe the next challenge is just speedrunning the max difficulty, so far I won against the rebels in 72 minutes, the mutants are harder because they have so much long-range defensive structures so artillery is absolutely necessary, as well as a wide variety of units including flying bugs that can kill dreadnoughts quickly. The cerberus is also incredibly tanky and requires a lot of tanks to take down just one. I wish I could play video games all day.

2026-06-19 #

It shouldn't be normal to live with constant stress, low-level anxiety, fear that some distant institutions own you. I guess this is what we deserve as the species which invented civilization. Being American has been drastically worse than my earliest memories, the ambient low-trust, always looking out for grifters, the constant threat of poverty. This was definitely not what I expected as a child, but I was too young to really notice the society in decline.

I guess the real turning point may have been 9/11 and the creation of the national security state with the DHS, an agency that does not deserve to exist. All the critics who warned about the fourth branch of government were right, now it's more like a hydra, even if one of its heads is cut off, two more grow. The overreach never stops, spending is never cut, oversight is non-existent. There is no such thing as too much power, to the psychopaths who run things.

Actually I lied, it may have been the Gun Control Act of 1968, or ending of the gold standard with the Bretton Woods agreement and the creation of the OSS/CIA, or the National Firearms Act of 1934, or the establishment of the Federal Reserve in 1913 or the FBI in 1908. Anyways, this country has been going downhill long before it was noticeably bad. We're at where we are today with a handful of billionaires and faceless bureaucrats in government in control of basically everything, and do we even deserve any better?

2026-06-16 #

Deep State - rogue, criminalized people acting as a criminal cabal within the government, using their government jobs to facilitate and cover up their crimes. They are no different than mafia.
DHS FBI Fusion Centers are Deep State. They fabricate false charges against thousands of innocent people in order to have "an enemy" to target in order to justify their growing Police State budgets and gain power over all aspects of society like the Nazis did. They bully professionals and local authorities and bribe unsophisticated, dull-witted civilians to commit criminal harassment against their fake targets. They ruin good people's lives "for profit". Their actions lead to blackballing, unemployment, financial ruin, false bad reputations, homelessness, illness, premature death... to feed the Homeland Security scam making the Federal and local criminals with badges, rich.

I found this screed on X somewhere, first of all they're wrong about money, they don't actually need your money. The goal is to humiliate their enemies and make them poorer, as Alex Karp said. It's less about what they gain, and more about making others lose. Fiat currency is a status game they win at by impoverishing others. If they just wanted money they could print it and launder it to themselves.

They are absolutely correct about the purpose of the deep state, to antagonize the people, what every deep state has done before. What these people have in common with common criminals is that they have no conscience. In their mind, they are not guilty of anything, because the legal system backs them up, incentive structures align for them to do their dirty work, and they have a pathological lack of empathy.

2026-06-15 #

Why do humans demand internal consistency, creating the illusion that we are the same from day to day, moment to moment? We set up this expectation for others as we do for ourselves, setting ourselves up for disappointment by how routine life becomes. Intelligence agencies conduct what is called pattern of life analysis, where daily routines and habits are studied, anything out of the ordinary is noted as an anomaly.

Perhaps I am sometimes incoherent, sentence by sentence. You can read one sentence as containing one thought, but the next sentence contradicts the previous one. None of it is supposed to make logical sense, maybe that is the wrong way to read things.

I've learned a new word recently: jeremiad. I think that a lot of what I write follows in this tradition, "the author bitterly laments the state of society and its morals in a serious tone of sustained invective, and always contains a prophecy of society's imminent downfall." However, I don't predict immediate collapse, it is hard to time things on a longer timeline, I just see the direction where things are going. Isn't it funny how I have appropriated it from the American Puritans, who in turn appropriated it from the Hebrews, who in turn owe their traditions to the ancient Mesopotamians? We are all derivatives of derivatives of derivatives of an original that no longer exists.

2026-06-14 #

I have consistently claimed that state of the art LLMs, and other AI tech will be primarily used for surveillance, military intelligence, and legal crime (bypassing right to privacy laws). Being a sophisticated chatbot or generating images is just a parlor trick and provides the smokescreen for its true purpose.

There is another, insidious change in how LLMs have changed how people think: it has replaced a lot of conversations which would otherwise have been interpersonal. Being vulnerable with people comes with far more hidden social costs, that people retreat to the less judgmental, sycophantic LLMs. The most mediocre people get to LARP as geniuses, feel productive, and get their worst ideas validated.

I get the feeling that every advance in technology makes the world slightly more efficient in some measurable way, but also slightly worse in immeasurable ways. Some inflection point has been passed long ago that technology becomes a detriment to humanity rather than a blessing. Technological progress masks societal decay.

2026-06-11 #

It's funny how people get so heated about things that are easily solvable or don't really matter, but then completely ignore hard problems and are entirely resistant to systemic change. America is a country full of conformists LARPing as individualists. We collectively don't actually want free speech, privacy, or even the right to defend ourselves, but that's often what people say, and even what the government says to gaslight people. Please, just collapse already.

The Internet keeps telling people who to hate, direct your hate towards this random person you don't know for 5 minutes, then the next person, and so on. They're not federal agents if they're anonymous with anime profile pictures online, or that's what they want you to think.

I have to admit that I quote the Gnostics a lot because I agree with their framing of the world as a loosh farm, just not the cosmology of it. I don't think there's actually a Yaldabaoth or a Sophia or Monad or Pleroma or any of that, or at least there is no way to know, some dude probably made it up by looking inside his mind.

2026-06-08 #

There's no such thing as a wasted life. One could spend all day in bed doing nothing, fight the government, play in a band and tour the world, start a family, travel to a warzone and get killed, it doesn't matter. I've accomplished far less than what I thought I would and I'm fine with that, maybe even satisfied. Now is a time when we give prescription amphetamines to kids who can't stay still, brainwash them via institutions and the media, make them work full-time jobs, and we wonder why nobody has any curiosity or ambition to do anything more in life.

Gurus may claim that there are hidden meanings to life. The difference between spiritual leaders and the unenlightened is just a few delusional beliefs, on the part of the spiritual leadership. This pattern repeats in any domain, but especially politics. We have entrusted the world to these idiots, and at some point we deserve what we get. We let them say the magic words, for Americans it's democracy, Jesus, economy, free market, protect and serve, social justice, or whatever the fuck Americans believe.

We're not the most civilized or educated, we're the most retarded lot of people to exist on Earth. We let international cabals run this place. Through both our actions and inaction, some harmless protests, bedrotting and doomscrolling, it's all the same result. The spiritual lunatics will tell you that you can leave this place behind and enter the Kingdom of Heaven or achieve moksha or some Messiah will save you or something like that. Nobody is coming to save you.

2026-06-06 #

I often find other sites on Neocities boring and this somewhat motivates me to be interesting. I am bored and in my mind I get excited, it's like stimming online. I sometimes wonder how far I can go largely on my own, or am I in my own weird little scene and micro-culture. I don't really feel like I belong on Neocities, though there are some accounts I really like, such as omnipresence and psychicnewborn.

I like a lot of David Dees art, even though it is not beautiful, it is subversive and has a metanarrative. Conservative art tends to be boring, technical, plain and simple, in other words just plain bad art; Dees does the opposite, visually and narratively. Everything I was taught growing up turned out to be a lie, entire wars started over lies, lives ruined because the system wanted it to be so.

I'm reading yet another biography of UG Krishnamurti, this one is by Mukunda Rao. It goes deep into UG's life before the calamity, his family, his involvement with the Theosophical Society, and travels. He once claimed that one can't replace illusion with reality, one can only replace an illusion with another illusion. Everytime you escape your cage, you find yourself in a bigger cage, this is the nature of reality.

2026-06-04 #

I find it hard to not be a panpsychist, it's all the rage these days, especially when hallucinating that LLMs may be artificial intelligences (I don't believe this to be the case). Panpsychism states that consciousness is more fundamental than physical reality, the noumena to the phenomena. If so, I should be able to manipulate reality with my mind, which there is little evidence of being able to, outside of my little meatsuit.

I used to be some sort of pantheist, believing that the universe expands and contracts like a heartbeat, there are beginnings and ends, but no definite beginning or end; this aligns with Buddhist cosmology. I'm not so certain of anything, it's all thoughts that other people made up, or are there even other people? Many have theorized that there is only One consciousness fragmented into multiple observers, Philipp Mainländer theorized that God killed himself and shattered into many beings, it is this universe we inhabit. All living beings inherit a will-to-die from this dead God and it's this death drive that is the fundamental motivation for our existence.

If we are all One being, then it is truly appalling how we treat each other. Perhaps the One hated existing so much like Mainländer suggested, so much that he would want to snuff out all life. This is how I feel humanity is currently structured, we are not meant to thrive. All the wars, the globally low fertility rates, the economic looting, is the purpose of the system.

2026-06-01 #

In recent news, Peter Thiel temporarily relocated to Argentina. Argentinians have the opportunity to do the funniest thing, if you know what I mean. It seems he miscalculated a few investments into his political protégé, JD Vance, and the technofeudal New Right is likely to be an abject failure. That doesn't mean we're not still getting technofeudalism, just that the boot to be licked will come with a few more performatively woke, bizarre clowns.

The centralization of power in data-centers is causing a collapse in consumer PC hardware, you know, the only kinds of computers that are accessible enough to install a free operating system and run free programs on. They will own compute and rent it back to you, you will own nothing and be happy. I think that the permacomputing guys were onto something, and it wasn't just the collapse in industrial capacity to make new silicon, but the hoarding of compute by the ruling class.

One thing I hate about cities is the heat. Nick Land describes it in Meltdown, the stench of heat everywhere. Even when it's cold you can feel the ambient heat emanating from the walls. If it snowed all year round, I'd even prefer that.

2026-05-31 #

Every now and then I'll browse a few Neocities sites and think to myself that there is in fact, not much in the way of variety, things tend to just follow the grain. This may sound like heresy to some who regard it as a creative outlet, let me explain. I want to see more stuff like writing that incorporates multimedia, this is one huge advantage of rawdogging HTML over literary outlets like Substack and most social media. I want more experimental UI that tries to push the boundaries rather than rehash the past with imagemaps and retro GIFs. I want to see net art that pushes the medium with interactivity, not just static images. I am of course, trying to do this myself.

To be charitable, I think that most Neocities users are not the most skilled engineers or artists and are making the most of what skills they do have, but at least try something different. Don't be the next site that romanticizes the past, or here's my OCs, here's my dozen of queer leftist PoC identification buttons, my mindless media consumption shrines, my favorite video games and artists, etc. None of those are interesante, to me at least.

I want to bring up this article again, "Neocities and a Lack of Passion", and a quote from Kurt Cobain, "Punk rock should mean freedom, liking and excepting anything that you like. Playing whatever you want. As sloppy as you want. As long as it's good and it has passion." I honestly think that most people are not terribly interesting, and probably shouldn't even have a personal website. People who do have their own sites tend to be self-selecting into a perhaps, narcissistic group because we believe we have something to say. I am a bit raw on here, unpolished, maybe even putting on a persona, that's how it's supposed to be.

I posted my Work In Progress game, Cavewar. I'm actually unsure where to take it, because of the huge effort needed to do more interesting things. Perhaps my goal should be to make one really good level. I don't like how much of my personal time it has eaten up.

2026-05-26 #

There's this Xeet which I think sums up what it's like to be American:

To be an American is to be perpetually manipulated, deceived, hustled and swindled and for good reason to have to suspect everyone and everything is trying to scam you. You are told not to believe your own eyes. This produces an insane human being, or psychopaths, or idiots.

The structure is very similar to the Gervais principle, in which a company is formed of losers (insane), clueless (idiots), and sociopaths (psychopath, same thing). A majority of institutions are just normalized scams, such as the tax system, healthcare, insurance, etc.

How many people truly have a stake in keeping things going the way they are? It does feel like an empire running on fumes, the elites plundering all the wealth while they still can, while betting everything on various GPU-powered, data center heavy, AI pipe dreams to enforce technocratic control over society. Recently the Catholic Church published a whole document about their position against AI, it's giving Butlerian Jihad vibes.

There's a reason why people don't tolerate humiliation, and it's not just an ego thing. If you're humiliating someone it signals that you're going to kill them, and if not, you've made a terrible mistake not just because of possible retribution, but because it is against divine law. Is that nonsense? Therefore if you are going to mock, you better be ready to cast stones. What proceeds from the humiliation ritual, is ritual killing.

All fears lead to fear of death. In the USA, there are endless possibilities for the most trivial problems to lead to an early death: not being able to afford a medical bill, utilities, taxes, food, shelter, or anything. It's illegal to be homeless in many places and society just seems to keep producing an unlimited supply of insane people, so it shouldn't be surprising that we're the world leader in incarceration.

2026-05-21 #

Cyberpsychosis is real. The military communications network we know as the Internet, is manifesting demons and escaping containment in the real world.

They don't even need MKULTRA anymore all these kids are giving themselves mind control brain damage from Internet algorithms alone

Embodied LLMs, autonomous world models, and the US government announcing aliens happening at the same time. Seems like a concerted effort to displace human consciousness, or another demoralization psyop. They want you to feel insignificant.

I get the urge sometimes to feed all of my writing here into a LLM for analysis, to use a collectively pre-trained model to introspect. All the models seem to have converged on each other, differences between the frontier models as of writing may be marginal, which may indicate that they're all trained on similar data-sets or distilled from each other.

Something that I've never felt comfortable with is holding any belief for too long. It's not as though certain belief systems will come back to haunt psychologically, but more so if they fail to manifest after so long, what was the point? You're always waiting for Christ to return, or to receive moksha, or whatever. Any thought or belief can be deconstructed, distorted, inverted, into pure simulacrum. As long as you're not dead, you can still believe whatever you want.

2026-05-20 #

What do you want? This question has always bothered me, what do I want? To crush my enemies, see them driven before me, and hear the lamentations of their women? Sometimes I just want to disappear or go non-verbal. I seem to want very little other than just existing in a natural state.

There's been a couple of brainworms on my mind that I want to dissect:

Vagueposting is so interesting, it's what I do a lot, because it relies on an information asymmetry between the poster and reader. I, the poster, have information that you are not privy to, and this keeps you guessing like mad, even assuming that I know nothing at all. Jesus was a vagueposter, so was Buddha, Muhammad, and all the rest of the spiritual madmen.

2026-05-15 #

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I've watched a lot of interviews with Whitney Webb lately. I'm actually unsure if she's controlled opposition, I find myself agreeing with a lot of her viewpoints. Basically, there's multiple factions of the elite at war with each other, which are broadly the old system which includes old money families and government bureaucrats, versus the technofeudal elite which are the billionaires, surveillance tech companies, and some members of the political establishment.

It's entirely possible that world leaders put on a show for the cameras, that they're at war with each other, while secretly they're conspiring. I do think that it's in all of their interests to surveil the population, financially dominate them, and strip the people of rights and due process. There is no way for me to communicate how certain I am of this, but this is their playbook, to humiliate enemies and make them poorer, as Alex Karp says.

Poor in a financial sense is how most people understand it, and perhaps the current shaming mechanism of this era. I don't think that having money is wealth though, the money buys time, leisure, even social status, and up to a certain point, morality. Society blames the poor for their moral faults. Professor Jiang says real wealth is the social connections you make in this lifetime. If you're good to people, that's how you actually build up wealth. I know quite a few people who are materially poor or materially rich, who are impoverished.

So that's another way that the powers that be make you poor: they want you to remain isolated from each other. To move real connections into digital space where they can surveil you. To be less dependent on each other, and more on the state and corporations. If you're just caged wageslave #3866934, they can disappear you the moment you rebel without consequence. It has been my goal to provoke those who firmly believe in their own smug superiority, moral or otherwise.

2026-05-12 #

There are two kinds of people in this world, those who create, and those who destroy. Of course there's infinite dualisms in this world but I find this one to be one of the most defining factors of a person. Everyone whose job it is to forcibly redistribute resources, which is any bureaucracy, belongs in the latter category.

The same idea has been re-hashed in different ways, such as value creation vs. value transference, there's this ancient blog post detailing this. Some people fundamentally can not create, they must take from others. So called advanced, first world, Western economies have almost entirely shifted towards value transference, where there are various client populations who always end up being scapegoated as the outgroup, such as the recent outrage about certain minorities leeching off of government, without realizing it's the very government they support and pay taxes to which enables the very problem they are complaining about.

I think of all the people who hate strongly on people who they barely know, how much loosh they are generating for the archons. In some sense, I am an archon harvesting their loosh. Haters are destroyers, deeply envious people who want to take what others create. People too insecure to share their actual opinions or beliefs, perhaps they have nothing to say.

I like how UG Krishnamurti was very angry when people said stupid things to him, he was always eager to call out bullshit. There are such things as stupid questions, as any lawyer would know, don't ask questions you don't know the answer to. Except UG never really had any answers, he may have been the most fully committed agnostic I've ever heard.

2026-05-07 #

I've had random feelings of anger towards absolute strangers that the world is a mess because nobody does anything. Not in a Daoist sense of accomplishing something by doing nothing, people are so self-absorbed in the performance of work while accomplishing nothing.

It's not a particularly unique viewpoint that the organizations which are intended to fight poverty, cause poverty. Or those which fight crime, cause crime, or those which save the environment, destroy the environment. Most of the supposedly intelligent people I know do not think this way, they work for these organizations. It's too easy to be self-interested, motivated by rational interest or perceived prestige and social status.

I wonder if these people ever really think about what happens after death, or perhaps they really are nihilists who believe in nothing. Maybe they are driven by fear and the only way they can prosper is to usurp whatever they think is God. There is no justice in this world, everything is upside down and has been since the dawn of civilization. Every civilization forms a hierarchy where the gaps widen, the rich get richer and poor get poorer, the institutions of justice exist solely to maintain the invulnerability of a transnational elite.

I'm just a schizo rambling online about things I know which can't be communicated, in words, in art, in ciphertext, anything. It seems that most likely, no communication is possible. Words get distorted, taken out of context, twisted to fit a narrative. Nobody cares about truth anymore, or they're psyopped to think it's all relative, people won't even believe their own eyes what is true.

2026-05-05 #

You are not the people. You are stupid slaves on the Epstein's menu of cruel cannibal elites. You are eaten, your brains are. It is why you watch Euphoria. Because all of you are perverts. Disgusting civilization. No reason to exist. Please, die.

This is incredibly based. It's easy to hate the American government, but do you have the courage to hate the American people? We are ruled by tyrants because we're collectively too dumb to push back. There was never any wisdom of crowds, what a crock of shit. Ask any American if they would like to end the Federal Reserve, and they would have no idea what you're talking about.

2026-05-04 #

I wonder if any communication is possible at all, or if we just confuse and deceive one another. UG Krishnamurti says that there is no way he can communicate his certainty about things, especially spiritual matters. Spirit derives from the Greek pneuma, which we generally think of as air or breath, but that is really all there is, there's just air pressure in a pneumatic sense. Early Rabbinical traditions were passed down orally, same as the Gnostics. The written word was not adequate, it had to be that the receiver could understand the message that was being sent.

There is no way for me to actually communicate certain truths about government. If actual communication was possible, we would not be deceived by judges, attorneys, witnesses, spy agencies, propaganda, militaries, diplomats, and the like.

2026-04-29 #

The blue/red pill thing is trending on social media again, I wrote about it about 2 years ago. I wouldn't really want to live in a society that all picked the red pill, so I picked blue. I don't care about how game theory optimal it would be or how retarded it would be to not to pick the red pill, I'd rather die.

I had some delicious omakase in the shit city of █████. The staff all spoke Mandarin with each other, which somehow made it better. I guess I could write about how they paired each fish with different flavors like caviar, truffle, peppers, citrus peels, but I can't tell you anything how about good it tasted. No communication is possible. It was not quite as good as Michelin star omakase in Japan, but close enough.

I don't like American cities, I think that they are largely dens of evil. I don't agree with their politics, they don't even realize that politics is violence, even at a local level. The only non-violent position to take would be anarchy, and short of that, minarchism.

2026-04-26 #

I've been obsessed with this little indie RTS / tower defense, Thronefall. It was on my Steam wishlist for a while, and I finally bought it because it was on sale but also for my own research in game design. It's interesting that they can stretch gameplay with various upgrades and handicaps, like Hades, and other modern indie games.

I'm not sure if there's a name for this kind of game design, where outcomes are determined by discrete decisions before the game even starts. The various upgrade paths tend to lead to combinations that are optimized for synergistic effects, and become more like optimization problems. Once a game is fully solved perhaps it's less fun because player agency results in optimal outcomes. I'm honestly not sure if I would enjoy a game like Factorio.

I want to make a war game that incorporates some elements of fifth-generation warfare, and some hypothetical technology like the Holtzman shields from Dune. Perhaps it is impossible to make a war game that doesn't glorify war.

I've been thinking of the common brainworm: only death and taxes are certain. I believe this is actually false, one of many statist fallacies that people accept without question. Death is certain, but the divine right of kings was not, neither are taxes, which are a social construct.

2026-04-24 #

I have massive eyebags from not sleeping well lately, not even having much dreams, just vague experiences like failing a test in university again. I don't know what it means, maybe this is the calm before the storm.

A particular Xeet disturbed me:

I don’t know who needs to hear this, but if the corporate-state intelligence nexus can upload a U2 album to your device w/o your consent, they can also upload a word document which makes you sound like a crazed lunatic, title it “manifesto,” then frame you for a spree of crimes…

They're already doing similar things. The brother of the Las Vegas shooter, most likely got certain "pornographic materials" planted on him by the feds to make him shut up. They can frame anyone for anything, make it look real and no one would know better because people still implicitly trust the system which absolutely does not work for the people.

As long as we're here on Earth there's few places where one can retreat from global financial systems, international bureaucrats, and the like. I get why people who want out retreat into the woods and the mountains and they're still hunted. One can't survive, evade, resist, and escape if there's nowhere to escape to.

I've seen a few FPV drone videos and it's disturbing how many victims just give up, facing a wall, curled in a fetal position, before getting blown apart. Carrying a shotgun with birdshot seems obvious but it's probably easier said than done. It can even be hard to feel pity for the soldiers who died this way, knowing that they likely volunteered to be a grunt, getting killed for nation states that don't give a shit about them.

2026-04-15 #

For the American tax cattle, today is tax day. You must pay your taxes regardless of legality, the 16th amendment provides legal cover for what is otherwise theft and extortion of the populace. It should be obvious that the tax goes to various grifters and that every level of government, every institution is structured as an exit scam.

As a single Millennial with no dependents and a six figure income, I’m apparently this country’s only tax base.

I never consented to any of this, I wasn't born here, didn't agree to abide by this country's unconstitutional laws, and apparently it's very hard to leave. All of this talk about taxes and rules-based orders is rather meaningless if it will result in widespread poverty, perhaps even genocide. The social destruction is the purpose, the purpose of a system is what it does.

2026-04-11 #

Awareness of secret societies is being spread by people like Professor Jiang, but they're quite hard to prove their existence, it's like trying to prove the existence of dark matter. These people are above the law, because they make the law, and are the first to transgress the law.

I've overheard a lot of talk lately about abolishing the US Constitution, but this is also what the secret societies want, it has too many limitations which they want to rewrite. The Bill of Rights is a problem for them to overcome. There are already countless legal loophole violations of the Bill of Rights on the books, which the Supreme Court won't accept cases for. If they want to commit what they call, conspiracy against rights, they can do so, and have done so regularly for longer than you have lived.

I am not a lawyer, but all the laws are founded upon an illegitimate authority. Regardless of their illegitimacy, one must conform to their rules under threat of violence and incarceration. If you don't obey an obscure tax code, they will gladly exercise their power to throw you in jail indefinitely. What a lot of people don't understand is that not only are the elite able to get away with unaliving children, but that is perhaps the least of their crimes. For what they have done and gotten away with, capital punishment is too light of a sentence. I understand why historically, entire families have been purged.

Is it justice to be prosecuted by actual criminals, corrupt officials, in their own kangaroo courts? Nothing short of annihilation will stop the elites and their bureaucracies from controlling people.

2026-04-06 #

Writing in my own journal feels like shouting into the void, nobody is reading but my worst enemies. Part of the reason why this website exists is to prove that I existed, but even this I feel is in vain, as I may outlive the open web, nothing good is supposed to last. The haters are even taunting, mocking what little liberty each individual might have, as "freeze peach". Ironically they are far closer to insects and machines with no individuation, than even a lowly bugman like me.

I came across a random anon post that goes like this:

I will never own a home. My purpose is to provide value to my employer. I will move thousands of miles away from my family because there are no jobs left. I will become a meaningless cog in an uncaring machine. My income will be eaten up by taxes, rent, and car expenses. One-third of my life will be spent sleeping, the other third will be spent working. The last third will be mostly taken up by chores and errands. I will be too exhausted to do anything meaningful with what little precious free time I have left. I will visit my family once or twice a year, watching them slowly fade away from my life until they perish. I am living in the most prosperous time in human history.

2026-04-02 #

If I'm still alive by the end of the year, it was an act of ███████ intervention, and I have interpreted the signs correctly. If I'm rotting away on a black site, then not even I will truly know why, fighting for a cause I didn't know existed. I can't communicate how I know, but the enemy has already won, and everything that follows is a humiliation ritual. Humanity must fight a war that has already been lost, alone and divided, against the archons, the false Gods.

If your theology demands you to suffer at the hands of your enemy, perhaps it was just the enemy's propaganda. It is in my interest that the entire US government collapses, the Iran war is accelerating that. The real war isn't just on land, air, and sea, but in human consciousness. Jesus said, if those who lead you say to you, 'See, the kingdom is in the sky,' then the birds of the sky will precede you. If they say to you, 'It is in the sea,' then the fish will precede you. Rather, the kingdom is inside of you, and it is outside of you.

2026-03-31 #

The pro-American position is to hope that the Iranians defeat the Great Satan and little Satan. Why nothing ever happens is because only peasants and soldiers die in these wars, rarely anyone in power. It's entirely likely that the war will accomplish absolutely nothing of strategic value for the US, other than its own economic destruction.

The world fundamentally won't change until the last of the boomers die off, likely by old age. The elites have ensured that power will remain in certain bloodlines, leaving no room for a great man of history to emerge. There won't be another aspiring watercolor painter who will change politics, power is too entrenched, too rigid, unyielding to systemic changes.

Only death can change things, people cannot change. Reform is not possible without major trauma, and a vastly different environment. When institutions that brutalize people fall from power, usually their members are executed, as exile is rarely granted. I think that the US military can not win the kinetic war, but win the propaganda war, so they will pull out but declare victory after expending all of their naval vessels, aircraft, and ground troops. They must manage a slow decline to stay in power, or they're dead.

2026-03-27 #

If you insist on remaining a complicated human being, then you must get used to false charges that will be leveled at you by the machines - technological, political, and social. If you know any complicated human beings, you must get used to disregarding charges made against them.

This Xeet hit hard. It's how they silence people who know, frame them, convict them, unalive them. I have personally felt their death grips wringing me from afar, from the source of the Great Satan. I don't believe in or preach forgiveness, they must be cleansed in fire for humanity to rise.

The only thing I really have any hope for is that if I don't die of unnatural causes, I will outlive them. If they aren't hunted down or forced to flee due to the inevitable collapse of the empire, their old decrepit bodies will likely cease to function in some retirement home or hospital bed, where their families will distance themselves from them. Cowards to the end, they will not for a second reflect on all the harm they have done to total strangers and the debts they never paid. In these moments of passing, I will appear in their last fleeting moments of conscience to escort them to their next Hell.

2026-03-25 #

Every year, I am not surprised that there is no widespread tax revolt, no consequences for tyrannical government, not even the will to resistance. Maybe a few symbolic protests and some low intensity conflict which ultimately amounts to nothing. People are demoralized and there is no belief that there is anything they can do to fix society. Instead we have a bunch of career grinders, looksmaxxers, the most atomized people in the world with no shared values other than possibly corporate culture, scientism, neoliberal democracy or some other bullshit.

I wish there was actually something to be done, maybe that thing is art. I've never taken artists seriously, especially these days they have their heads up their asses or they're somehow involved in money laundering. I've never wanted to be presented in a gallery or even make any amount of money from it, it would somehow taint my process.

Maybe I am that performative male soyboy chud LARPing online as some sort of anarchist, when in fact I work and pay taxes to the Great Satan. If they wanted to they could take my site down, throw me in a blacksite, and nobody would ever hear from me again. I'd be made a non-person in the public eye, maybe remembered by a few people I interacted with. They'll spin up a narrative of lies and nobody would know better.

I feel like what we're facing is the end of human value, stop pretending that human rights are respected, or that we have any expectation of privacy or liberty. You can either sulk in complacency, or fight a war to the death. If we collectively choose to do nothing we don't deserve to exist.

2026-03-22 #

I had gone to a Lutheran Church a few times in the recent past and spoken with pastors and vicars and their flock, and I want to reflect on the belief systems I have heard. I have read the New Testament, parts of the Old Testament, and lots of apocryphal texts.

First of all, I can not accept what the Church says about Christ. The people I talked to are genuine believers, but they believe in a system that is deeply duplicitous. The insecurity of religious authority fueled by the desire to centralize power and become the sole arbiter of God, is a painfully human pattern that permeates across finance, intelligence, government, the power centers of human civilization.

The evangelicals have a marketing and sales pitch. Nothing more, nothing less. Explain the problem by exploiting insecurities, and offer the solution. The way they sell their religion is the same way they sell beauty products to women (and increasingly men these days). Joining their religion starts with an admission of guilt, that's how they hook you in. You are flawed, and you need an external savior. You are ugly, buy our product.

I'm not sure what I expected, perhaps my story is the same as what U.G. Krishnamurti experienced, I came looking for salvation, enlightenment, moksha, etc. and found not only nothing, but that there is nothing but invisible skydudes. I don't think that the flock really practices what they preach, nor do the shepherds. Even I would be closer to following Christ than them by leaving behind nearly all of my material belongings, keeping what I can carry in a luggage case.

What I really saw was people who just wanted the old status quo of the American Empire, and it says a lot that the conservative crowd overlaps heavily with evangelical types. If their God bled at the hands of their enemies, would they stop believing? Please shoot down more F-35s for good measure, that's my tax dollars put to waste.

There is a pretty good resource on Neocities about Christ, and that is The Gospel of Jesus Christ.

2026-03-20 #

I remember when I first heard this song, I was living in a dingy studio apartment in █████████. Something about cults and group psychology is so fascinating, how people engage in self-destructive acts when it's for some ideology, group, or greater good.

The most successful organizations function as cults. Tight ideological cohesion, power hierarchies, transgressions in the name of their God. It won't even feel evil, it's just following orders, rules and regulations, the banality of evil as Hannah Arendt suggested.

2026-03-16 #

Hardly anyone works a job just for money, especially government employees since they are generally not paid as well as the private sector. They do it for other benefits like healthcare, job security, and abusing people.

I've been thinking about how totalitarian systems collapse, and it's usually because the energy expended to maintain such a system is more than the energy they are able to extract from it. A lot of people are saying that the new carceral buildings they are building to temporarily hold people will be used on the general population, which I don't doubt, but the benefits of slave labor are marginal at best. They are sending both the worst and the best people to be brutalized by institutions.

A brainworm I've been pondering a lot is how I will be judged as a human being. Professor Jiang reduces it to basically, "be a good person". If you can look back at your life and see that you've helped other people more than you harmed them, you're a good goy. But no good deed shall go unpunished, which makes it exceedingly difficult to do good. I tend to think most people are amoral actors working within a framework of game theory, because that is the best predictor.

2026-03-15 #

If you are American, Iran is not your enemy, your government is. While the war has little popular support unlike the previous incursions in Iraq and Afghanistan, they will continue to instigate this war. Your opinions don't matter, you have no choice but to pay taxes to fund this war anyways. Not only doesn't your opinion matter, you will not be capable of, or be allowed to express genuine opinions as the totalitarian surveillance state will terrorize any dissenters.

I've been following the Prairieland case, in which nine defendants were declared guilty of terrorism by the state. I don't agree with with their politics at all, they fit Ted K's description of the leftist power process too well, in which they will take performative action against the authorities, which will be co-opted to enact necessary change anyways. Even if their plans had succeeded, they wouldn't have accomplished anything of importance.

Perhaps even dumber is the case of Erik "Houdini" Ebbesen, who was arrested for petty online harassment of a right wing influencer, Kaitlin Bennett. What did he even hope to accomplish? Even if he had succeeded in scaring her away, she would have just continued her tour to another city. More importantly, she has no real power or authority, she's just a useful idiot that real power can use to psychologically manipulate the conservative crowd.

Am I just saying to obey your government, pay your taxes, and follow all laws no matter how unjust they are? I am saying that becomes impossible at some point, and there will be point that it threatens your survival, but that point is very different for everyone. On the other side, there are beneficiaries of the financial-intelligence-religion behemoth (and useful idiots who think they're on their side) who want to keep the system running as long as they can, even if that means bringing about the Mark of the Beast, a system of economic control as alluded to in Revelations.

I think that everything went wrong when human civilization was invented, then we got religion, finance, government, zero-sum status games that always end up in a winner-takes-all system. I see no worthwhile future for humanity and don't really want any part of it, we are lost.

2026-03-09 #

I've watched a few interviews with Clavicular, including some hostile ones like the Piers Morgan or Adam Friedland ones. There's some obvious references to this community that just show how much reach this content has. I have the feeling that the forums I used to post on, including one where I had nearly a thousand posts and got myself quoted in a mainstream article pseudonymously and harassed by federal law enforcement, paved the way for someone so niche to become mainstream. Good for him, he actually sounds like a reasonable guy, lifemaxxing as one might say.

I think a lot of what he's saying about the breakdown of society is based on Briffault's Law: "The female, not the male, determines all the conditions of the animal family. Where the female can derive no benefit from association with the male, no such association takes place." It's a cold, harsh reality and it's funny how his arguments speak for themselves. If he weren't a handsome guy, he'd just be jestermaxxing. People will listen to the truth when it comes from the mouths of attractive people, and he's become the voice of a generation, for better or worse.

I certainly did not wish for things to be this way, but nowadays people like Clavicular are mainstream. I think it's an indictment on society for things to get this bad that these are the types of figures who get popular. It's important that evil people look good on the outside.

I don't subscribe to the belief that physiognomy determines all of social reality, humans are more malleable than that. It's just the current cultural milieu of chic pomo nihilism enables this sort of self-grooming behavior to run rampant, like the beautiful ones from Calhoun's mouse utopia experiment. Clavicular himself doesn't have any original or novel ideas, they all came from the looksmaxxing community, he was able to rebrand and put a pretty face to it, pun intended.

2026-03-07 #

I got a letter from some corporation saying they mishandled my personal information for the nth time, which at this point doesn't really matter since nobody has any privacy anyways. Everything about us peasants is basically public but we keep pretending that private institutions and government don't hold all the keys the castle. None of the laws like KYC make us any safer, they make us less safe by allowing corporations mishandle personal information with no recourse. The entire financial system is based on scams at the highest level, a giant Ponzi scheme that we can't even opt out of.

I don't know who needs to hear this, but there won't be a (communist) revolution in the USA, and the conservative 2A types for all their posturing, are actually the redcoats, not revolutionaries. It's a near perfect system of control which would rival Magnasanti, except few people want to reproduce in such a society. Consider how hopeless generation Z feels, generation Alpha will inherit a world ravaged by war and conflict.

The song that is usually played in Agartha edits is pretty good. I wonder if we will get more neo-Dadaist art as the collapse of Western hegemony unfolds. The original Dada movement took off after World War I, as a protest against the aesthetic values of the old world. This world must be cleansed with fire.

2026-03-03 #

We are all lolcows in the eyes of God. I've been tirelessly working on a new game. Post-Life Crisis could have been done in a day, Trial II took about 2 weeks, this next one is a real-time strategy game and will take a few months at least. I have to admit that my Blender skills are currently weak, I've been learning to model and texture and possibly rig and animate. It's much faster to appropriate assets that others release with open licenses, but for a game that needs a consistent art-style, it's better to come up with one's own.

I feel that the making is a race, I only have so much time left to make it, for whatever reason. Could be my own death or disappearance, could be the glowies kidnapping me, or some Final Destination kind of grisly death. Maybe they will drop a nuke on ████████, I wouldn't mind much.

2026-02-23 #

Why is everything so much of the same? I don't mean that there's nothing new under the sun, but that the boundaries of everything are closing in. Even among deviants they all look and sound the same, you're a furry, a goth, an e-girl, a punk, etc. Even the colors of people's houses and cars and clothes are more monochrome than ever, everyone and everything just wants to fit in.

Could Bukowski be a writer in 2026? He would have been cancelled many times over. Isn't it funny how everyone just says grape, unalive, eggplant, corn, in place of actual words in some meta-ironic way, as if some device is always recording? You will get demonetized and deplatformed from real life if you say the naughty words, that's where Western society is at right now, and it is bleak. We're at each other's throats over trivialities.

2026-02-20 #

I think that it's unlikely that even the web will survive what comes next. The infrastructure of undersea cables will be sabotaged, information transfer will drastically slow down to be unusable, which will bring about the next dark age.

There is a bill to repeal Section 230 which may effectively end not only social media, but independent web hosts like Neocities. I really don't want to bother with self-hosting, or moving to the deep web. The web may have been a failed experiment, that is coming to an end along with the pretense of civil liberties. From HTML 1.0 in 1991, to HTML 5 in 2008, to whenever the web is effectively a dead medium, it had a good run. I don't know what could or will replace it, maybe a new hypertext, maybe Xanadu, but most likely locked-down intelligence-run media apps. Maybe we'd be holdouts, hyperpunks of the ancient web.

These laws will apply ex post facto, they'll come after what you posted years ago. The opinions which you may have held at the time, which were once moral grandstanding, dominator beliefs, would be heretical tomorrow.

2026-02-16 #

There has been a lot of uproar about DHS tracking dissidents and critics of ICE, Discord requiring ID verification, but none about how bullshit the existing NSA surveillance programs are. They push our boundaries, pull back a little, yet we still lose any semblance of freedom, slowly and then all at once. See this article about how corporations and government collude to connect your identity to everything you say and do, good chance this article will be scrubbed from the Internet. The author may get disappeared by dark powers.

There are many individuals with Chinese names who worked on this particular surveillance system... and I have quite a few theories on why they did it, even for a government which wants to subjugate the Chinese people. Uncle Toms, Massey Sahibs, Charlie Chans know no racial boundaries. There have been many cases in history of former collaborators with oppressive states being used, discarded, and losing all social status.

I'm not sure if it even matters anymore to say that I am sane and not suicidal. If that changes, then it is completely involuntary.

2026-02-14 #

Are the preppers right? If there is widespread civil unrest or war in the US, I think I'd be one of the first to die. The vast majority of us are just disposable humans who have no real power at all. The elites all have doomsday bunkers to retreat to, if they don't get backstabbed by their own security forces.

The kind of person who will actually survive any conflict is highly personable, a pillar of their community, but also independent of the system and can survive on the land they inhabit. Most people including preppers fail on all fronts, especially dependence of the system. The definition of collapse I think is the most accurate, is rapid simplification of systems. This is also why people would welcome the collapse, it would mean actual freedom from systems which enslave us.

There's going to be people who will be disappeared by the government before that happens, I am almost certainly one of them but I can't say how I know.

2026-02-06 #

At the end of empire, basic survival is threatened by the state. While I don't think non-violent resistance can accomplish much, the cost of compliance to a system that only extracts more and more becomes unbearable. I guess that the collapse works like a Chinese finger-trap: the more they divide us, the more stable the system becomes, the trap is inescapable. When people come together, the trap becomes loose.

The main way that most people in the USA will feel the collapse personally, is through hyper-inflation of the dollar. At the present moment, it seems that every asset class is going down, but all of that is relative to the dollar. The shadow banking system is trying to prop up the US bond market until the inevitable collapse.

I don't know how to feel, at some point I may be killed by extremely dark powers, it still feels ridiculous to pretend that everything is normal. In the present day, they are still untouchable, but they must know fear.

2026-02-05 #

I'd rather express myself than spout performative bullshit that people want to hear, it's why I even have a site at all. It feels like every passing day, this becomes more difficult to do, as the web becomes consumed by LLMs, by the surveillance state. I didn't really expect much of a following, in fact I expected to be mostly hated or ignored. If you aren't a federal agent, why are you reading this? Let me know in the comments (just kidding, there's no comments because I don't want to moderate the haters).

There's so much security and security theatre in the world because people are assholes. If people could just refrain from scamming, defrauding, lying, stealing, hurting others, the world would be a lot nicer. But I'm not one to preach about how we should all just love each other, "love thy neighbor as thyself" is one of the reasons why the world is in such a miserable state, not in spite of it. I think that only fear creates peace, the fear of mutual destruction. This is the only language that the elites understand each other on.

2026-01-31 #

I get the impression that many are trapped in a Panglossian worldview, and that all of the institutions of the world shape this worldview with bread and circuses, though today its more like drugs, processed foods, and brainrot/slop content.

Is there any way out of this social contract that one did not agree to? Paul in Romans 13 says to obey the government, Leo Tolstoy says to offer no resistance to evil, UG Krishnamurti says to obey all laws no matter how unjust, and so on. All laws are human inventions, even the so-called Law handed down to Moses at Mt. Sinai. All governments lack legitimate authority, what they have is a monopoly on violence.

2026-01-28 #

While the US and its fake currency backed by nothing but military force is collapsing, at least some people are aware:

We're currently at the stage of History where Governments will just straight up take whatever you have. Even if you've left states, or renounced citizenships, they will come for you and to rob what they can. We're again in the age of looting and plunder. How sad and disappointing

I'm really not surprised that it has come to this, the rules were always made to disadvantage the peasants, the world police have their roots in the slave trade. The system will never allow you to overthrow the system, it must either collapse or be destroyed with force, and the former is an inevitability.

I feel particularly alone, even in the dark corners of the wired, few understand what is going on in the world. The simplest explanation is that until the collapse comes to them personally, they will have their heads firmly in the sand. Until then, they will pretend it's law and order, business as usual, planning their careers and retirement goals and investments in stocks and bonds. All the fake assets they deceived us into thinking was valuable, is actual garbage.

2026-01-26 #

There is no freedom at all, few actually want it. They would prefer totalitarianism to freedom, which is how unvalued it is. The current mood:

If you haven’t realized it yet, our entire government is a massive mafia that launders taxpayer money back to themselves through foreign aid and endless wars. They despise you and care nothing about your suffering and death, as long as they remain wealthy.

There are massive protests going on in Minnesota, but I think it will have no impact at all, other than strengthening the federal government. It's a show of force, each domestic conflict only reinforces that the state always wins, on the basis of might makes right. Not only do they not understand what the 2nd amendment was really for, they aren't able to even say it.

2026-01-21 #

I've been thinking again about UG Krishnamurti's calamity, and what stood out to me this time was how his body physically changed, particularly how his glands functioned differed greatly from an average human. He described the calamity as almost having killed him, his heart stopping, then coming back to life. I'm not sure I am convinced that this was just an independent event, that despite his searching for moksha, he could not find it. He had become so certain that the body, not the soul or mind, is immortal, death is just a reshuffling of atoms, life and death is a continuous process (this is definitely true at a cellular level).

There was no way for him to transmit this certainty, he even went as far to say that communication is not possible. The implication is that all oral traditions of the most esoteric, spiritual teachers, could not mean a thing. He did not want to be remembered, nor for people to record his words and to forget them all, and to feel free to distort or misquote what he said. Perhaps it was all a cosmic joke, to make him physically incapable of being able to connect with anything spiritually, to be forced into a natural state all the time. Or perhaps he was really more in alignment with reality than the rest of us.

What is a little sad is that he never felt any connection to his wife who he had four kids with, nor to Valentine, the Swiss woman who gave him shelter during a hard time.

2026-01-20 #

I've read this series of articles, after I interviewed a handful of Chollima myself. This happened some time ago, and I didn't really want to share anything about it, other than to confirm parts of the article. They were not hired, but one of them was quite convincing, an impressive web of lies. I would guess that they have successfully infiltrated many other companies with less effective filters.

They used live AI assistance to answer questions, and completely fabricated their life stories. Advanced persistent threats are real, often state-sponsored, and the vast majority of civilians are unprepared to deal with the worst of what humanity has to offer, namely state intelligence.

2026-01-19 #

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I visited a Barnes & Noble recently, and realized that I would probably put a vast majority of the books on the shelves on my anti-books list. Either I am not interested in the subject, or think the subject is made up bullshit like religion, economics, or actually state-sponsored propaganda. It was amusing to see books that appeal to the evangelical conservative crowd, as well as the leftists. Then I remembered that almost none of them actually read books anyways. Perhaps to them, it is about visibility on the bookshelves and sales numbers and being on lists like the NYT Best Sellers, than the contents of the books themselves.

I did look for books that I enjoy and found those too, like "The Dispossessed" by Ursula K. Le Guin, and "Notes From Underground" by Fyodor Dostoevsky. I want to read VALIS by Philip K. Dick, I'm already intrigued by the Black Iron Prison, a false material world created by a malevolent God to trap human consciousness. When I read about these authors' lives they are quite often unremarkable: Kafka worked as some sort of paralegal who did all of his writing on the side and wanted to burn it all. Bukowski worked various blue-collar jobs, most notably at a post office. Philip K. Dick apparently did nothing but writing, but he struggled financially. I don't think American society could even produce great writers anymore, as all of the time and energy of the working class is consumed by the economic Leviathan.

I had considered feeding all of my writings into a pre-trained LLM and let a user prompt what would I say. I'm sure that corporations and government have already beat me to it, there is a predictive model of the human behind "daliwali" somewhere, and by their metrics, it is guilty of crimethink. The problem is that they do not actually understand the human condition, I am not some fixed entity or the sum of all my words and experiences, at least until I am dead.

2026-01-16 #

I've seen a few of these educational Agartha edits, and they're so good. Wonder if the person making them is mocking higher education, or just wants to teach people by grabbing their attention with some brainrot, or both. You could take a university course on set theory, or just watch some brainrot videos. Obviously there's some rigor missing, but you get the idea.

I frequently walk by some prestigious university and think to myself that the kids are wasting their time and their parent's and the bank's money on getting some credential, it's how I felt when I was a student. I wish I could tell them, that there's nothing to know, you are wasting your time by studying, go out and socialize and party and create some life experiences, take some mushrooms or drop some acid or whatever.

I was extremely morose, maybe a little bit depressed when I was in university, because I could see the patterns of a society in a long-term decline, and that in all likelihood, I had no worthwhile future and would be a nobody. Little did I know that my unusual mind would lead me to where I am, in the crosshairs of some of the most wicked and powerful people in the world. If you think you're safe, the government wants to kill you, too. They'll just take their time about it, try to extract as much productivity and taxes before they unalive you after retirement when everyone you thought you knew, forgot about you.

2026-01-12 #

The current mood:

There’s no jobs, the economy finna crash, AI is killing the earth and the government hates us and wants us to die shit is getting grim
Normal human beings are not capable of understanding the level of evil we are dealing with.
I think a lot of Americans are dissociating just to get through the day, and I’m worried that coping this way will have real long-term consequences.

The archons of the world try in vain to become Gods, through ever more complicated, technological, obfuscated means of control. All for the fleeting glory of the world:

Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done and what I had toiled to achieve, everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind; nothing was gained under the sun. - Ecclesiastes 2:11

Ecclesiastes details the story of King Solomon, a man who had it all, and he is most well known for the temple he ordered to be built while he was alive. He had around 700 wives, and 300 women who were basically his slaves. In other words, he was an OG coomer. And yet even he came to the realization that the satisfaction of his lust and power fantasy was not enough.

A mindworm I've had as of late is the idea that mathematicians are retarded, another one of Professor Jiang's ideas. If you study maths and logic, you're just memorizing and applying knowledge. That's just phenomena-slop, you're just discovering what is observable to you, the noumena still eludes you. People who were well known for math and physics like Isaac Newton were primarily theologians in their lifetime, and math nerds second. The intellectual class wanted to understand how the world functioned, and they were more interested in discovering divine mystery rather than formulas and equations.

As someone who has seen the world, I think that most people in any profession, occupying the most prestigious organizations, are incredibly mediocre. Forcing certain thought patterns is something anyone can do with sufficient training, and often what separates the competent from incompetent is "does this person have intrinsic motivation to do [thing]?"

2026-01-11 #

I took a cold shower because the heater in my building is broken. I expect to endure far greater discomforts in my future. Despite everything going on, there are people just trying to continue in their daily routines, is this normalcy bias? I guess people really aren't aware that their whole society is collapsing in slow motion. Nobody is doing anything, and only a few are even passively resisting. If they decided to disappear me, probably few would notice, if I ever stop writing bullshit on here it's because the faceless bureaucrats decided to end me.

When the Soviet Union dissolved in 1991, many former communist party members fled the country, and denied their associations to the party. When dysfunctional governments collapse, usually the former bureaucrats become personas non grata. Given the cruelty of the American regime to marginalized peoples, they have to stay in power for the rest of their lives, so that they never face judgment. I do not think that the US federal government will survive another decade, and may be forced to collapse due to another stupid, pointless war. Assuming I don't die of unnatural causes, I will likely outlive the current government.

Beliefs require that you die for them, otherwise they're just opinions or preferences. The body does not care about your beliefs, it is in fact threatened by your beliefs. The main purpose of thought is to enable the body to continue eating, drinking, defecating, reproducing, without getting murdered. A recurring thought since I was very young was how people die: mostly from cancer, diseases, suicide, and homicide. The vast majority of those homicides were caused by government: war, imprisonment, starvation and drought. If you die of manmade causes, it is statistically likely that it was caused by government.

The support of ICE by "conservative" 2A types has got me to understand that most people don't actually believe in anything, even the words coming out of their mouths. If ICE can go door-to-door in search of illegal aliens, the ATF can search you for illegal firearms (yes that should be an oxymoron given the 2A says that right to bear arms should not be infringed). The DEA can search you for illegal substances, or the FBI can search all your digital storage for child abuse content they they themselves planted. They invent the crime, they make the rules because they were the first to break them.

Destruction is the purpose. Tom Clancy once said that government isn't good at anything other than collecting taxes, taking away your freedoms and killing people, and it isn't good at anything else. They need to destroy people's lives and make them unstable, because that makes them easier to control, and if they won't obey, they will be disappeared.

2026-01-10 #

I've been thinking a lot about how three types of institutions control the world: finance, intelligence, and religion. Professor Jiang from the Predictive History YouTube channel talks about this. Money is fake and infinite, and the main purpose for decoupling currency from anything real is to manipulate it. Even cryptocurrencies are a false escape from the system, it is still the system with more surveillance and programmability (with one exception, Monero). The intelligence agencies know everything through digital surveillance and machine learning, they invent their own enemies and accuse them of what they themselves have done. They control you even if you're not religious, most people fall under the state cult, believing in hard materialism, the cult of individualism, and the worship of capital and authority itself.

Basically in this world, you are born into a system that wants to enslave you, and if you try to resist, they will incarcerate or kill you. You begin life as tax cattle, and they end your life as beef cattle. In my formative years I had studied various political systems and ideologies, I was sure that Western liberalism and so-called international rules-based order could not be the final form of human civilization. I was idealistic, being a member of my high school's Amnesty International club, raising awareness of human rights. I no longer believe that human dignity could ever be respected by a state. The experience of human consciousness is divine.

2026-01-07 #

Some woman in Minneapolis got shot in the face by an ICE officer, and they're calling her a domestic terrorist. This comes shortly after this article was published, titled "We're All Going to be Called Terrorists Eventually". Unfortunately I don't think that one person's death is going to change anything.

2026-01-06 #

I refuse to believe that I have any 100% human, organic haters. My haters on the Mongolian basket-weaving forums are all federal agents. When you are an archon, you do not care about privacy, because people should have nothing to hide, you do not care about free speech, because people should have nothing to say, you do not care about self-defense, because people should have nothing worth defending, not even their own lives. You ignore that humans aren't like machines with no agency. "Everything within the State, nothing against the State."

2026-01-03 #

I have remained silent on the topic of Venezuela, and now that Maduro has been captured, here's my thoughts. I never had very high hopes for his regime to survive, and Venezuela is of little strategic importance to the US, except for its oil fields. The same old playbook of destablization in Latin America still works, what will follow is a drawn out looting and ransacking of the country to benefit the American empire.

He was almost certainly betrayed by his own military, which were all compromised and bribed by CIA black operations. The reason why they could pull this off in Venezuela, and not North Korea, is due to widespread internal corruption. There is no way that a small detachment of special forces could have kidnapped him without taking heavy casualties if the military actually did their job.

What's comical is that Maduro was charged with possession of machine guns and destructive devices, this is not international law, but an illegitimate US law enacted in 1934 with the NFA. In addition, conspiracy to use said weapons against the United States (hint: this is what every other military in the world does, including the allies of the US). What this proves is that international law is fake and gay, its authority is and can only be backed by violence. The international rules-based order has no rules, is disordered, and definitely isn't based.

It seems that there's just one solitary voice in Congress speaking out against it.

2026-01-02 #

I don't think there are historical precedents for what we're facing today, and that is largely due to novel technology. Totalitarianism is a technical problem, and they solved it. Arguably, there is no reason to work towards anything anymore, when all of your efforts go towards paying taxes, participating in the bureaucracy, investing in companies that participate in the destruction of the social fabric, or various real life battle royales like the economic lottery.

I've been a lazy fatass, and need to exercise more. It's funny how in propaganda, they flaunt the most hypermasculine soldiers, as if their muscles can deflect bullets, artillery and drones. And at the recruitment centers, it's the complete opposite. The US military despite all their spending and over-extended bases in colonized nations, were defeated by a bunch of rice farmers and goat herders. They would almost certainly lose a near-peer conflict with Russia or China.

2026-01-01 #

Time is a flat circle. I didn't think I would survive this long. No, there will not be a revolution this year, nor the next. Nothing ever happens. Put down the hamburgers and rifles, you aren't going to (successfully) overthrow the Great Satan that is the federal government, the neo-Roman empire. You certainly won't do it by non-violent means either, and that includes tax revolt.

You must learn to discern the inside from the outside. Recognize that they have no legitimate authority, on this Earth and beyond, and act accordingly. Be the darkness, and the light.

Jesus may have been a historical figure who advocated political praxis:

David Skrbina debates on this topic. Paul was an artful liar who turned a political rebel, into a God.